Well, it is getting easier to stay in a submissive mindset thankfully.  I am finding it easier and easier to stay in a submissive mindset, and keep E’s wants and desires foremost in my mind.  I still occasionally, and I don’t expect them to go away completely, have moments where I get grouchy, and don’t feel very submissive.  But now, after a month, it is beginning to become habitual.  This is good, and something I want to happen, because it is much easier when it becomes habit, rather than a conscious thought I must keep in the forefront of my mind.

E also apologized the other day, saying she was sorry that she has not been as “Dommly” as she could be.  But I understand that there are days she does not feel good, and so she feels less dominant than others.  But overall, she is becoming more comfortable and confident in her role.

We were watching ER last night, and were surprised by the BDSM subplot NBC introduced.  However, we were a little put out by the way in which NBC choose to depict BDSM.  They chose two of the most least likeable characters to begin a D/s relationship, using a common theme of the strong prick wanting to be dominated by a younger less senior colleague.  It will be interesting to see where NBC chooses to go with this, and how they will depict this relationship thought out the season.  But even as we might have disagreed with their choice of characters, it was still amusing to see facets of our relationship depicted on prime time TV.