I have been down with a cold, which started in my sinuses, and proceeded to move down into my throat and chest. When I would get home from work, an employee is on vacation so I could not call in sick, all I wanted to do was just curl up on the couch with a blanket and watch TV. I found it a real effort to get up and do my normal house chores. Also, I began to feel some resentment of E’s requests, thinking, “Why don’t you just do it yourself, you have two legs…” Obviously, not the best mindset for a 24/7 sub.

I don’t want to slip back into my old pre-sub habits, but I can see how people can. It is sometimes easier to revert to old patterns than to keep focusing on the new relationship dynamic.

Thankfully, I am now mostly over the crud. I came home from work, made dinner, ate with E, and then did the dishes and cleaned up the kitchen. While I was cleaning, I boiled water for tea, and put the water into a thermos. After I was done, I had hot tea for both myself, and for E, who unfortunately got the sick from me.

Hopefully, in a day or two she will be feeling better, since neither of us are at our best when we are not feeling well…