Well I am back home in the Northwest again.  Sorry I have not written, but I was on a business trip last week through the southern and central San Joaquin valley in California.  If you have been reading my posts, you may have noticed that I spend most of the summer traveling for work, and this was the first trip of this year.

When I flew in last night it was snowing.  E picked me up at the airport and took me out to dinner, since I was not able to get anything to eat before my flight left Sacramento.  She dressed up for me, and put on her trashiest clothing and put on more makeup than usual for me.  I am finding that I like her a little trashy. smile

After a nice dinner, we headed home, and I started a fire in the living room, and E allowed me to rub her feet.  The more I rub her feet, the more I find it helps me to center myself and allow my submission to bloom.  I am not sure why it is, but sitting on the floor at her feet and carefully rubbing her feet returns me to my  submissive mindset.

My job requires me to be a type A personality, and portray a chauvinistic male machismo.  There are few women working at the upper levels, and a lot of woman working at the minimum wage level, so there is an unspoken feeling of male superiority throughout the industry.  When I travel, I flip into this mindset, and I find that giving E a foot rub on my return returns me to where I want to be mentally.

After a good foot rub, we headed into the bedroom to snuggle and be close.  I love to be next to her, with my head against her breasts with my head angled back, exposing my throat and collar to her.  For years, I did not like snuggling, and I felt uncomfortable.  During that time, she wanted to put her head on my chest and be comforted.  I think I was uncomfortable because I subconsciously wanted to be the one being comforted not giving the comfort.  Now, as I lie next to her with my neck exposed, and she softly pets my head, I feel a deep contentment and I relax in her love and acceptance.